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Ramblings of a 17 yr old kid

Some venting, some summeries of my day or week.

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10/15/25

Did some side quests i feel like such a weeb oh my god (not that i already wasnt..since like 3rd grade). Oswald utau i need idc if i cant make music ill make em talk. Okay yeah i need to organize

10/7/25

So ocvtober got kinda worse. I try so hard not to be a downer BUT MAN. Anywayy my friends birthday is tomorow im making them a duckie drawing. I have been trying to draw traditional to keep my small skills uo at least. Hallowwen is less fun too, i cant decide on a costume and i feel overwhelmed :') But candy !!!!!!!!!! Yippieee? I REALLY wanna rework so many oages but my motivation jumps around so much. But for now small updates from time to time.

9/2/25

Last two days have been pure hell and by last night i felt so much pressure as if my brain was spilttingh in two. but luckily all my fandoms keep me at bay. On saturday i wnet to a carshow for 6 hours and beach for 1 and had 4 hours go back and to combinied. I ate sand and i guess too much heata nd walkinga around made my brain go haywire. I hate social anxiety so much it makes me wanna scream. And my grandmas sick too,but. I'm trying not to shut down and ignore people i am trying and trying is better than nothing. I'm gonna ignore this so i can do other pages and schoolwork.8/22/25

I neeeed a computer man. I hate not being able to update or draw digitally (no charger rn) but otherwise life has been up and down. I didn't mention it but i have been dating for 3 or zo monthz..whoopz. I'm happy and i honestly never thought id date zomeone at all or until i waz like..25. (thatz not bad i juzt waz told to alwayz hate highzchool romance lol. I also have been playong alot of roblox, and making picmix'z !!! My acc: https://www.picmix.com/profile/xxozwal17xx :3 I dont have much time in clazz to update bc i need to LOCK IN on my work zo i graduate.

8/4/25

My bad, sorry for falling off the place of the planet for..like 2-3 months. But sadly i cannot promise that i will be on more due to school being ALOT right now. AT my school they take your phone regardless if you are on it until the end of the day, which..yeah not for me. Summer has been also alot. many good and bad things but id rather not spend my time on here venting or complaining yet. One thing is i had very intresting dreams, and so many. Funny, sad, werid, and vivid ones. I do however, plan to add more to my epic mickey shrine as i am playing it as soon as im home. I also wanna update the roblox and grpahics pages..lastly, i have no art. As one of the reasons i couldn;t update is i broke my charger to charge my tablet and can't get a new one :") buttt i could mabye post doodles ? mabye ?

4/25/25

So, Moca sctrached My dog, but we cleaned the scratch and you can't even see it anymore. But now the kittens are a huge problem. One i held for about an hour or so. My first time holding a kitten really, soft and cute. Its really sad to give them away but my dog WILL kill them so we have to. Hopping someone at my dads work takes good care of like 4 cats (another one died, but not from my dog it seems). I can't speak for my brother, no clue. I'm in some physical pain (advil twice a day is my lifestlye) but it'll eventually be alright. I've been playing with my friend. Mitzy is so sweet and thank you for taking my mind off things <3

4/22/25

Not feeling great right now. My dog, Sugar killed or tried to grab a dead kitten, i think she killed one and atatcked the other, but the cat in my mom's words "looked pretty dead, like for hours long". So i have no clue. But she did attack and bite the other kitten as my "outdoor" cat Moca watched, not scractching my dog or anything. I know my dog did it for instinct, but now we have no clue if she could be sick from any sickness the kittens may have had. I still feel bad for the poor kittens, one dead and one most likely doomed to die along with it. And my mom wont get my dog shots. "leave it up to god, she tried something stupid". The reason why Moca was removed off my about me is we were planning to get her adopted by a faimly who could take better care of her and not be in fear of our dog. But i love her and i loved her kittens, that i only saw for a few mintues. I told my little brother not to hit the dog for this, and then he told me he was gonna kill himself. It sounds dumb, but i was terrifed. I love my little brother and i cried, and i am trying not cry as i write. He is safe and just said he was "joking" about grabbing a knife but, i felt the fear of my mom when she found out i attempted and failed a couple years ago. So my apolgies if i am less active, or very active so i can take my mind off things.

this wasn't worded well, but i don't really care.

4/18/25

HELP TODAY I HAVE BEEN VERY VERY very annoying. rambling about eddsworld + tomska all day, AND THEN THE NEW TOON IN DANDY'S WORLD LOOKS LIKE OSWALD (WITH A SKIN) JUSTA GIRL OMLLLLL. IM FROTHING AR THE MOUTH TO PLAY RNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!

4/15/25

Mitzy/Mrs ringo star..left that. The past couple of days have been okay, last weekend was weridly peaceful and not at the same time. I legit had a moment where i thought i was dreaming or dead, as it felt so good, and i was really productive. I know it sounds dumb but im serious. i felt like i was gonna die by the end of the weekend

4/8/25

Mainly Juzt writing a to-do lizt for today, i re-zet up my Wii U ! Juzt dance 4 iz a blazt and im buzting out the kirby collection once im home

  • Draw zite header
  • Draw zite art (for collection index and zuch)
  • Add imagez to blog
  • Move thiz blog to main blog page and make archivez
  • Move ztampz to catbox

4/4/25

Yippie pozivity ! Over the last couple weekz i visted my friend, we went to a zpooky garage zale, a lil ztore, a market center thingy ? where i wanted to go to the arcade zo badly to play houze of the dead . . . (my mom zaid no, probably good but cmonnnn ! i hope i don't zound zpoiled. i love going out with friendz after a long while fun anyway, juzt being zilly) then barnz and noble ! ! I got Yuri ezpoir, and Dogman ^_^ I alzo got her twisted wonderland vol 1 !

I zaw my family friend next week, and introduced her to eddzworld ! ! ! I've seen memez of getting people into zomthing thru a character they would have a cruzh on, and it zeemz thatz how thiz played out (she lovez tom, don't blame her, i had a cruzh on tamara)

3/20/25

My brain likes to tell me sometimes to just stop talking completly and shutdown. It tells me to not talk or talk as little as posible to stop annoying people, and in a good case, to do my schoolwork. But do i not reliaze that means i am technichally ignoring people. I ty not to but i feel this urge to just shut down more and more often. I am so chronically online that this happens online too, in games i just shut up until i try to feel comfortable to talk or they leave. I feel numb and a lil sad rn but it could be worse. On a better note, i have made alot of cool projects this week. I made a base for an acrylic standee for my classmate, an azumanga daioh tote bag, and a makeup/pencil bag desgin for my mom. Now i hope to make a keychain for my oswald itabag. But i feel like i am not very aware of that, and my brain is only thinking about shutting down.

3/17/25

I BEAT MRS RINGO STAR IN MARIO CART HHHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dressed as the riddler for dress to impress day at school, i hope i win ! I gotta yatta in dandy's world she's pretty cool ! i like her ablity, yummy candyBut in all seriousness.. i can't stop thinking about my friend M i love her and miss her dearly. She's going through alot and its hard for me to comort others honestly. I hope shes doing well, i get a little hyperfixated on her, i hope im not too obsessive.

3/10/25

I have so much work to do for school wahhh ! Otherwise, i'm figuring out the Dandy dressup, starting a million differnt crafts, and cleaning my room. Today my friend isn't at school so i'm just doing work, it's a little hard to beleive it was like this for like mabye 2 monthz before meeting her. Like yeah i'm still cautious of friends after last year and the previuos years of not being able to keep in touch, but man..just odd. Infact rn i'm about to copy notes for our exam for them. If u see me comet a million times on their site, no you don't.

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